i don't know if this goes here but here goes nothing....

I buried my cousin, Ricky this past Saturday. May 7th to be exact. He passed away may 2nd in Virginia. He was in the navy. They had to ship his body to Pennsylvania. He had a military funeral. They played taps. It was very sad. Very sad. My mom, boyfriend and I went to my aunt's house for the luncheon. After my boyfriend and I left her house which is Nj, I begged to go back to the cemetery.

It started to rain for a few minutes. Out of no where came two huge rainbows.When we got to the cemetery, I realized that the rainbows were coming from the cemetery. I took multiple pictures so people would believe me. Earlier in the week, my mom and I were talking about how we couldn't feel Ricky around us. She was crying saying she felt like he was still in turmoil.

This rainbow(s) was, or at least felt like a sign from Ricky. I saw that rainbow and automatically felt safe and at peace. It was surely needed after all the tears cried that day. It has slowly restored some of my faith in God that I have lost in the past few days. I just wanted to share my story with you all.

Dear Friends,

I believe rainbows are always signs, and they symbolize hope.
How are you and your family doing now?

My family has fallen apart. Their all pointing the finger and creating more drama than need be. I am okay. I guess.

It is sad that everyone is pointing fingers and creating drama. I have learned from the people on here that it isn't anyone's fault. When my brother committed suicide 10 months agao the first thing that Brett (married to the wife's sister) said was "NO WHAT IFS". No one could have known, No one could have helped because he wouldn't let anyone know he was so very desperately depressed, No one could stop him because once the person makes up there mind they will do whatever it takes to keep others from stopping them. I did have some "what ifs" but thanks to this site I know that my "what ifs" don't matter and I couldn't have done anything differently that would have changed the outcome becasue my brother hid it so well what he was going through and what he was planning. It's no one's fault!! As for signs, I believe in them too. For me it was doves. When my late husband died of health reasons 13 years ago, a dove came to live at my house. It was there on the roof and in the trees cooing to me. I knew it was a sign that my late husband spirit was still with me and so was God. When my mother passed away suddenly two years ago, two doves came to live at my house for a while (my father had passed away four years earlier). Again I saw it as a sign that my parents and God were with me. Now, I have a single dove who lives at my house and has been with me since I returned from my brother's funeral. He calls to me when I am outside and sometimes I see him walking around in my yard or in the trees. My brother's spirit is with me and so is God. I definately believe in signs and I see the double rainbow as a sign from Ricky and God that they are with you. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Be sure to take care of yourself.