Brother attempted then completed three weeks ago

[avetiver]

At the end of Feb. my brother took an overdose of Phenobarbital and survived. He had the drug because he fostered dogs with seizures. He was hospitalized in a deep coma for two weeks and then slowly woke up. My husband and I sat by his bedside every day, talking to him and telling him how much he was loved.
He convinced the shrink, in two brief visits that it was an accidental overdose and was released. How??????? It wasn't even prescribed for him!!!!!! And he had 5 times the toxic dose in his body!!! And I told nurses, doctors, social workers that we believed the overdose to be deliberate.
So then he came home and three days later, the first time he was alone in the house, he shot himself in the head.
I feel like we've been through it twice. Driving 4 hours each day to the hospital and all those days holding his hand and talking to him when he was in the Coma. Not knowing if he would live or be brain damaged when he woke up.The elation that he was going to be okay.Then to come home from church to find his body. Since then our time has been consumed with the things you have to take care of. Cleaning up. The police. Arranging the funeral. Clearing out his rented house. We are finally done and the world is caving in. So sad. So angry. So tired.
Has anyone else ever been through it twice?

[Karyl]

Avetiver,

I am so sorry your brother is gone. My heart goes out to you.

Your brother suffered so much, and apparently he did not get the help he needed to find hope for life after his first attempt. It's heart-breaking.

And now, it's as if the pain was passed to you. You tried so hard to help him.

You sad that you are angry and tired. I think that those are natural responses, considering all that's been going on in your lives.
Would you like to tell us a little more about your brother and about the funeral, etc.?

[jillslay8]

Avetiver,
I am so sorry for your loss.

I also have been through it twice once in June of 2011 my brother took an over dose and I was the one to figure out where he was and we found him just in time it took a while before he would see me cause he was pissed off at me for finding him.
Yet he was also a very good talker and said he failed at this why try again, when he did finely see me we cried hugged and he said Jill you save my life .I asked are you mad he said no .Then march 8th 2012 he was dead of the overdose it is so hard I wish I knew what to say to help us both I just do not know I am so sorry for all of us who have to live through this hell

[MsFaolin]

Hey,

My boyfriend, Ryan, finally completed almost three months ago, however before that he had tried with varying degrees of seriousness about 3 times. The last time prior to his death (about 6mnths prior) he took an overdose of all his meds that had been prescribed. At the time he was in a psychiatric hospital and he had convinced the Drs he was OK to go home but was telling me something different. I tried calling his Dr the day they were going to let him out and he never called me back. Three days later he overdosed and went back into the hospital where he stayed for two weeks. His Dr kept prescribing meds that didnt help without ever really talking to him about how he was feeling. Ryan didnt trust the doctors and as a result he lied to them about his feelings while telling me something different. In Jan this year we had a fight and I left to cool off and when I came home he had committed suicide.

Through the two years he was extremely depressed it felt like a constant roller coaster of him being in and out of hospital and always wondering if I would find him alive the next time I came home. It felt like I had been through all the emotions about four times.

So I know how you feel. I often ask myself if there was more that I could have done to help him somehow since I was the only one who really knew what was happening.

I hope you can find a way to come to terms with your loss.

xxx

[Freedobandia]

My dad would attempt almost weekly for the past 5 years. As you can see from the frequency, these attempts were not very serious. I would say 1 out of ten were serious enough he would be placed in ICU. He was even admitted to the state mental hospital.

On May 30th, he succeeded in shooting himself. The Saturday before, he left a voicemail saying he was going to blow his brains out and I didn't take it seriously (I didn't think he had a gun).

I can't imagine how exhausted you are and the range of emotions you have experienced so closely together. I know everyone says this, but I am sincerely sorry for your loss and I hurt for you.

I keep telling myself that the will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you. Man, this is a tough test for us all.