My emotions are all over the place. I'll go from doing ok to uncontrollable tears in a matter of seconds. It's not good to have to meet this way, but it's comforting to be in the company of people who know what it's like.
Oh, she is so young. I am sending my blessings to you . I wish I could transport a hug over the sea. This must be so so hard. Your precious daughter.
Being all over the place is normal, I'm sorry to say, but I think it is good to hear that at least. I felt my mind going with the trauma of grief when my son passed - there as grief and there was a part of me watching myself fall apart and not understanding and feeling very scared. Coming here and reading some posts helped me to at least identify what was happening to me. I hope it will help you too.
Although I don't often drop in on this board anymore, I want you to know that I am thinking of you Please, please, take care of you. x
If nothing else, give refuge to those in need.