Lost, confused and afraid.

[gosh]

My family doctor sucks (to say the least). I could contact a psychologist but I'm still discouraged by them after being unable to find a good one when I was struggling with depression. I know that I just need some time but still I know that it will be inside of me until the day I die.

Hugs,

Gosia

[Bereaved1]

Hi Gosh. How are the medical people in your school? Can ask around your office, your boyfriend's family, www.befrienders.org? PS Did you go to that Concert your brother gave you a ticket to? (((hugs)))

[psyquestor]

Gosia, I know good doctors are hard to find. I'm sorry yours has let you down in the past. The reason I asked, was because when I found that I was having a really hard time, they put me on anti-anxiety medication and it helped. (((hugs))) You're right, you will get through this.

[gosh]

Thank you for your posts. (((hugs)) There are actually two university psychologists, I could try and arrange a meeting, I think the case is that I just need to vent my feelings somewhere and this might be a good occassion.

Still waiting for the concert, it's on the 4th of July.

I'm slowly getting back to work, still not working on my M.A. thesis, but I'm actually able to concentrate and finish a translation or work for more than 2 hours.

Many hugs from Poland,

Gosia

[Bereaved1]

Hey Gosh, thanks for your UPdate. You are really someone to Celebrate! (((hugggggggs)))

[gosh]

Sometimes I wish I was dead and my brother was alive.

[psyquestor]

((((((Gosia)))))))) I think that's part of this. I had often felt that way in the first years. I used to beg God to take me instead. Please know that we care and there is always the hotline numbers too. They are there to help. Did you find out about seeing one of the school psychologists? My daughter has been seeing one at her University and it really has helped her.

Thinking of you today.

[gosh]

I didn't, I don't think I'm ready plus I've been swamped with things to do at the university since it's the last week of my study.

I just feel like having someone trying to constantly rip my heart out. The pain is unbearable.

[psyquestor]

Oh I've been there - those last few weeks are so stressful! I can sympathize with trying to get everything done. Hopefully some of these feelings will lift once your finals are completed. If not, remember that anxiety is highly treatable and one you need not suffer through alone. In the meantime best wishes with your studies...I know how hard it is.

[gosh]

Just wanted to share this song with all of you:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sG2gO7QLT7A

It was one of my brother's favourites.