bringing up my son

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sarahewan8
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bringing up my son

Post by sarahewan8 » Tue May 26, 2015 3:15 pm

Hi all, im new to this site... although I wish I had found it years ago :-(
Abit about why im hear....
When I was 14 I met my soul mate <3 we was young and in and out of love for 5 years until we both got to 21 and decided to settle down and make a perfect life together, we got a house and planned a future, I got pregnant at 22 with our baby (something he wanted more than anything) I was so happy :-), 2 days after our 5month baby scan the day we found out we was having a son, my soul mate went out at night and hung himself, totally unexpected and unexplainably heartbreaking but he couldnt cope with the pressure of being a parent as his own father was a joke he was scared he would be too, he was too much of a good person to put his own child through any if what he went through :-( (he didnt know himself like the rest of us did but then thats depression. He left devastation everywhere as he was such a wonderful person and the life and soul of every party, every room he walked into! Our son, our wonderful boy is 8years old and more like him everyday, caring, sensitive and a real character!
He knows the truth, always has but iv avoided the word suicide and its always been in baby terms, daddy wasnt well...he was too nice to be here etc... he shocked me though the other day and has been asking alot of questions?? But is he old enough to know it all, what do I say? Will this affect him? Has anyone else got any similar circumstances or is anyone further down the road? Any advice would be very welcome please

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