I don't understand

[kyle2cute]

I'm so sorry. I don't have any answers because I'm just new to this too (my 16 year old son died June 24th). The only thing I can suggest is therapy. Get help from someone who knows how to help you deal with your emotions.

Hugs from one grieving parent to another.

[kansley]

Dear Michael....words can not express how very sorry I am about the death of your dear son Kendall.....I am yet another parent on this site who has lost a son. Mom's and Dad's grieve differently....I understand your anger because my husband is dealing with that too.....I, on the other hand am just sad alot. It has been two years for us....and it does get better...it never goes away, but the stabbing pain that you are feeling now will one day become a dull ache, it will be more manageable, but it never goes away. You will find a "new normal" , but it is a life with out your child, so it never "feels" normal. Just take it day at a time and allow yourself to feel the pain and the loss and the grief.....and little by little, after a long while, you will find a way to live again, a way to smile again, a way to find purpose again....at least I pray you will.....May God grant you the strength to get thru the coming weeks and months as you struggle with this terrible loss......again, I am so sorry you have become one of us....so sorry you too, are having to endure this unimaginable sorrow.
Jason's Mom.....Kathie

[LANIE]

Dear Michael: I don't understand either! I also lost my son to this horrid disease and I will never understand it. Never in a million years did I ever think this could happen to my son. Bless your heart, please know that we are all here for you. Grieving is so hard, please take care of yourself and take it one day at a time. May God give you the strength you need to get through all of your tomorrows.

Peace and Love,

Lanie
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[amyolenchalk]

How fortunate that you found this site. It took me almost 3 years to get the courage to look. My son, Mike, killed himself almst 4 years ago. He was 16. I can tell you that I only know what it is like to be 4 years away from that awful day. Your journey has just started. You'll find a lot of support at this website. There are some amazing people here. Feel free to contact me. I'm here for you and my thoughts are with you. amy

[utbiochemist]

I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my son in February. I understand everything Joe's sister said as well, and I've been told by professionals who deal exclusively with loss due to suicide that every feeling is normal. I hope so - I've had all of them. My local hospice is the source of counseling I've sought; and I've been extremely fortunate to deal with someone who can help me focus all of my emotions onto a very practical reality. Who is able to answer many questions, and be honest about which ones can't be answered. I would like to see pictures of your son (and Joe's sister - your brother). My son's page is at: http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=308645807978. He was funny, compassionate, cared about EVERYONE, kind, hilarious, and had a smile that lit up the world.

Someday you'll be able to remember the times you spent with him without falling apart. At first I couldn't even remember anything about my son at all, and it still hurts, but at least I haven't completely lost him.

Faye

Faye